Goodbye Shy

This week I got a job. I started working at PillPack and I'm very excited about it. PillPack is a company with a lot of people my age, which means I will be meeting a lot of new people. I'm trying to break out of my old ways of waiting people to come and talk to me so I tried something new at my orientation. I challenged myself to start a conversation with at least 5 strangers and it actually wasn't as terrifying as I thought it would be. All the people I met were very nice and very interesting and I look forward to working with them. It usually is very hard for me to start a conversation, but we all had a lot in common and I found it easy to relate to the people I met.

Over the past few weeks I truly feel as though my experiment to get over my fear, of putting myself out there, has worked. I feel more confident as to say things I want to say and I feel more able to speak my mind. This week my challenge to put myself out there was to go to dinner alone. This task was very hard for me because going out to dinner is something that no one does alone, it essentially brands you a loser. Which is how I felt for the majority of my dinner. One of the hardest parts was going to the hostess and when she asked "how many?" I had to respond with just one. She gave me a weird look, which I didn't appreciate. I went to the Olive Garden on a Friday night. It was without a doubt one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. Everyone was there with their families or on a date. And there I was alone with my salad and breadsticks.  I don't think I will ever do this to myself again, but halfway through the dinner I realized that I was ...