Hello my name is Sam

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I'm 19 years old and I live in Bedford, NH, U.S.A. I am a sophomore at the University of New Hampshire and I am an undeclared major.

For this blog, I want to do something that challenges me. The hardest thing for me to do is live outside my comfort zone. So ideally I want to do something everyday that scares me, something that forces me to get over my fear of putting myself out there.

I haven't always been shy I used to be very outgoing. My extroverted personality turned into an introverted one my freshman year of high school. The girl I thought was my best friend made up a rumor about me that caused all of my friends to stop talking to me.

After that I never felt like I was good enough for anything or anyone. I had a very hard time making friends and I just changed into a person I didn't like. I began to care what everyone thought about me so much that I became invisible in fear that someone would talk about me.

I've talked to many adults about this and they all say the same thing, when they hit the age 40 they stopped caring what people thought. That's great and all, but I don't want to wait until I'm 40 to live my life the way I want to.

This blog will be my journey of overcoming a fear that has ruled my life for years.




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