Ticket For One

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I have always been afraid to do things alone, but ironically I spend most of my time alone. This is not by choice it's just that for a while I haven't really had any friends to do things with.

As I said before I lost all my friends in high school and ever since that it's been a struggle to connect and make those friendships again. The fact that I spend a lot of time alone prevents me from doing things I want to do.

I'm afraid that people will think I'm a loser that doesn't have any friends (which sometimes that's how I feel) or that I'm pathetic. Because I didn't really have any friends in high school I missed out on a lot of things; prom, football games, parties, the list goes on and on. As a result of that I have a lot of regrets about the time I spent in high school.

I no longer want to live a life full of regrets, this is the time that I should be regretting the aftermath of the stupid things I did rather than regretting not doing them at all.

As for the purpose of this blog I am doing something everyday that puts me outside my comfort zone.  As for today I went to a movie by myself. This new movie came out, A Star is Born (staring Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga), I had been dying to see it and I couldn't find anyone to go with.

So I chose one of the busiest nights,  a Friday, and I went to the movies all alone. The most embarrassing part was asking for not two tickets, but one. I got a water and some Raisinets and I made my way to the theater.

To be completely honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought. I believe it was the initial going into the theatre alone, but once I was over that I actually was fine. My final thoughts on this exercise was that Bradley Cooper is a phenomenal actor with the most beautiful blue eyes and I'm starting to care less and less about what people think of me. I'm finding my voice and I don't feel like I'm as shy as I once was.

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